I fear I've won a battle that shouldn't be won.

I really do wear the pants in this relationship. (:
I never realized how relative these pictures are until I really looked. And the funny thing is, I had a great argument until now.. and it's escaped me.
Oh well.

It's funny.. the one it really matters that I should vent to isn't getting it. Ever.
What can I say, he's a man of logic. So it probably wouldn't do anything anyway.
Good thing he doesn't read my blog. We'd be in trouble, I guess, if he ever did.
But back to what I was saying, I guess I'll shoot my rambling into cyberspace from now on.
Shouldn't be that much of a difference. Cody won't get my ranting anymore, but that's the only thing changing.
My friends put up with too much of my teenage girl shit.

I want to make intelligent entries again in this blog, but it's become an emotional dumpster, it feels like.
The thing that sucks is that nothing else crosses my mind anymore.
But then again, did it ever?
I know people occasionally read this blog, ones I know and ones I don't, but not one has mentioned it to me except for 2 I know.
(And if you guys ever read this, tell me. Jasmine and Sathya. Thanks in advance..)

I guess my problem is that I've got so much to say to him (HIM), but I can't.
I don't know why, I just can't.
I should.
But I can't.
It's because I feel like if something should be said, it really shouldn't (total sense there). Like.. you shouldn't tell someone how to love someone. You shouldn't tell someone how to treat their girlfriend. You shouldn't tell someone they deserve better. Even if it's true.
I don't want anything else. I don't want anything better. I want him to love me and mean it and show it. But I couldn't tell him to love me more, or mean it more, or show it more. That's up to him.
If he really does and really means it, he should show it on HIS account.
I feel like I'm babbling to myself.
(Partially because I don't think anyone will read this and understand it.)

I've thought this many times, I feel like I've told certain people before.. but here goes.
First of all.. I feel like if I ever tell him what battle I've won, I should do it in a coffee shop. Right now, in my mind, it's the Mount Tabor Starbucks. Because I feel like the Starbucks close to my house would be asking for too much. (It's the closest to his house, too, though..)
So the title?
I think I've won the "I love you more" battle. I think I told him. I think he knows. I know he's stopped arguing.

Fin.
Probably will delete soon.

-CS.