Praying for love in a lap dance, and paying in naivety.

I've been thinking a lot lately, about many different things.
I plan on putting them all up on this blog, but I'm not sure if they'll be separately posted or not... so I guess what I'm trying to say is that if they're all jumbled together in one post, just bear with me. I want to get everything out, save maybe one thing that's gnawing at the corners of my mind whenever I drift off.
But who knows, that might be posted too.

Anyway, I went to New York City for the first time from last Wednesday to this past Saturday. [Hontou desu! :D NYC ga saikou no toshiiii~ Kore wa cheesakunai-desu...x__X]
It was amazing, indubitably, and I had been expecting greatness, indubitably... I'd wanted to go since I was a little kid, and it didn't disappoint. However, when we drove through the streets of Manhattan, a string of thoughts went through my head.

Our society is swimming neck-deep in debauchery... and I'd venture to say it's built upon it itself. I never gave it much thought, growing up in suburbia, but geez... we passed so many strip joints [and strip joint ADS, for that matter] in NYC that I was beginning to wonder why prostitution hasn't been federally legalized, as it would certainly help with the good old USA's outstanding national debt...

[Of course, I say this to be facetious. I see the logic behind it being the industry, or lack thereof, that it is. Sillies.]

Anyway, as we passed all these gentlemen's clubs and DVD/lingerie stores, I was sitting there thinking about how many political scandals there are each year, known and unknown to the public; how many viruses are transferred over the world wide web through a façade of pornography. I mean, damn, think about how many people are doing the following- the dirty, thinking about doing the dirty, or even WATCHING having the dirty done- RIGHT NOW. Weird thought, right? And as teenage pregnancy numbers skyrocket, it's almost sad to see how weak our generation has become to primal carnal instinct. Is that why people are divorcing so frequently; the sex just isn't the same?

And it's not just sex, I've realized... it's everything. We live in a world where self-pleasure rules over man, and we're all so fucking susceptible to the seemingly iron grasp. Every night is an orgy, figuratively speaking or not, making every morning the lazy swirl of partial memories and occasional remnants of the night before as we try to hide from the light filtering through the window on our side... and once you start this cycle, you just end up wanting more and more. Tell me, reader, am I wrong?

I'm not condemning sexual acts in the least. It's part of healthy human behavior, no doubt there. I just find it a bit comical that people of the 21st century have taken such refuge in all this. Is it really all you have left, mortal?

Oh, this and love. Ever wonder how many times someone says "I love you" in a day? If every person in the world said they loved someone, that's approximately 6,814,472,306 "I love you"s.

Now think of how many of them are lying.

It's like there's pressure these days to love!
I find that more and more kids are "falling in love". It's what makes me hate movies like Twilight, to be completely blunt. You have this relationship- an abusive relationship, at that- and it's portrayed as perfection in the easily manipulated, fragile mind of the weak-spirited teenage female.

Some of them.

But is this not true for adults, too? There's so many movies about so-called picture-perfect love, and this sets this unreachable standard.
I've talked about all this before, I'm stopping here. Go read my other post if you're interested.

One last thing, though- if we've got such a pressure to have our constituents fall in love, why is love between two constituents [in America, in particular] of the same gender condemned?
[I know I said I was done, but I wanted to talk about this too...]
I was talking to a friend today about how I thought that being called gay, lesbian, bi, straight, or whatever the hell you want to be called was just asking for segregation. I mean, look at it rationally. Labels like that are made for one reason- to separate groups of people. And when groups branch off from one another, people start feeling reasons instinctively to say that they're better than the other, or that the other is wrong for being different.

Ugh, this post is going to cause mucho conflict, I can feel it. xD I risk posting as private, actually, because all this was quite a bitch to spill onto a page.
I really meant it when I said I have trouble sorting my thoughts into words. Filing cabinet.

Have a wonderful Tuesday.

-CS.

PS- There will always be someone in a person's life who has no idea how much the actions and decisions that they themselves carry out will impact another... and how much they'll be missed when they're gone.