Hey guys.
I've made the decision to discontinue this blog until further notice.
A lot's been happening in the past week, and instead of disappearing for a while, I decided to inform whoever's still reading this thing of my absence. I'm not really thinking straight these days, and I don't want that to invade my blogs, because I still consider writing to be of the most sacred of things.
I don't want anyone to worry about me, because I'll be fine, and if anything should happen to me, I'll make sure that someone lets the followers of this blog know.
I don't want to call this the end, because I feel like if I do, I'll definitely come back to it someday.. but by that point, you'll all be long gone and this web address will be forgotten. So I guess I'll come back eventually, but I don't know what'll happen to my writing.
Who knows?
Apologies for the inconvenience, and thanks for putting up with my 68 posts of angry (sometimes) ranting.
Until we meet again, Internet.
-CS.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Bet you won't hear a "We Are The World" remake for this one, America.
Today I was skimming the headlines, and something caught my eye. No, it wasn’t a story. It was a little red icon with the medical cross under the Yahoo! logo on their homepage. I hovered over the icon, and the text block “Pakistan floods: How to help” popped up.
[I’m not going to explain the destruction, but I do suggest clicking the links below if you haven’t heard about the flooding.]
Timeline of monsoon damage in Pakistan; July 29, 2010 to August 12, 2010. (Credit: The Dawn Media Group.)
Details on flood destruction, based out of Lahore, Pakistan; August 17, 2010. (Credit: NY Times)
An non-American call-to-arms regarding flood damage, and a ray of hope to end the reign of religious extremists on the reputation of the Middle East; August 17, 2010. (Credit: BBC)
Oh, but I figured if you're too lazy to click the links, I'll leave you with this caption:
"The floodwaters cover an area of Pakistan the size of England."
That's over 50,000 square miles of newborn lakes.
Anywho.
Of course, I started thinking right then [which is NEVER a good thing], and I started getting more and more pissed. I remembered the coverage of Hurricane Katrina, and the earthquakes this past year in Haiti and Chile, and not to downplay the terrible aftermaths of all three, but honestly, what the hell? Why, all of a sudden, does the media turn its head when Pakistan’s hit with a massive monsoon?
Why else; we’ve been told to. Ask your average Joe on the street what he thinks of the Pakistanis, and you’ve got a frightening percent chance that he’ll say “Damn towelheads.” The American media has been turning its head on this issue because we’re in a fucking war with the people, and people establish their discriminatory basis on the exceptions to the rules. Your people are dying, and all you have to say on the subject is the fact that the exception to the rule has threatened national security? [By the way, the guys responsible for the 9/11 attacks were based in Afghanistan on a majority basis, not Pakistan.] I’m really pissed, personally, that people don’t care simply because we’ve been told not to.
I’ve been having a conversation today with a few people about all this, and we’ve delved into deeper matters than just racial discrimination. This issue could be a pretty acceptable poster child for the fact that these days, people just don’t give a fuck about other people. And the worst part is that everyone accepts this. It’s like, “alright, everyone’s biased, and so my racism in the grand scheme of things is socially acceptable. It’s okay, right? It’s just a little bit. Even if it's true, well, no turning back, might as well just accept it and BE racist.” On a broader scale, I hear groups of people talking all the time about how the world sucks so bad, and everything is SO awful. People say that humans have a progressive nature, but toward what? A BETTER world? Not exactly, try a better self.
I guess in short, I personally can't admit that the world is awful, because I feel like the minute I do, I've given up on it. I’m not a humanitarian, and I’m certainly not the most caring individual to ever walk the earth, but when people are dying and others just don’t give a shit.. I notice.
End rant. Spread the word about the monsoons in Pakistan, because I guarantee you know more than one person who hasn’t heard.
-CS.
[I’m not going to explain the destruction, but I do suggest clicking the links below if you haven’t heard about the flooding.]
Timeline of monsoon damage in Pakistan; July 29, 2010 to August 12, 2010. (Credit: The Dawn Media Group.)
Details on flood destruction, based out of Lahore, Pakistan; August 17, 2010. (Credit: NY Times)
An non-American call-to-arms regarding flood damage, and a ray of hope to end the reign of religious extremists on the reputation of the Middle East; August 17, 2010. (Credit: BBC)
Oh, but I figured if you're too lazy to click the links, I'll leave you with this caption:
"The floodwaters cover an area of Pakistan the size of England."
That's over 50,000 square miles of newborn lakes.
Anywho.
Of course, I started thinking right then [which is NEVER a good thing], and I started getting more and more pissed. I remembered the coverage of Hurricane Katrina, and the earthquakes this past year in Haiti and Chile, and not to downplay the terrible aftermaths of all three, but honestly, what the hell? Why, all of a sudden, does the media turn its head when Pakistan’s hit with a massive monsoon?
Why else; we’ve been told to. Ask your average Joe on the street what he thinks of the Pakistanis, and you’ve got a frightening percent chance that he’ll say “Damn towelheads.” The American media has been turning its head on this issue because we’re in a fucking war with the people, and people establish their discriminatory basis on the exceptions to the rules. Your people are dying, and all you have to say on the subject is the fact that the exception to the rule has threatened national security? [By the way, the guys responsible for the 9/11 attacks were based in Afghanistan on a majority basis, not Pakistan.] I’m really pissed, personally, that people don’t care simply because we’ve been told not to.
I’ve been having a conversation today with a few people about all this, and we’ve delved into deeper matters than just racial discrimination. This issue could be a pretty acceptable poster child for the fact that these days, people just don’t give a fuck about other people. And the worst part is that everyone accepts this. It’s like, “alright, everyone’s biased, and so my racism in the grand scheme of things is socially acceptable. It’s okay, right? It’s just a little bit. Even if it's true, well, no turning back, might as well just accept it and BE racist.” On a broader scale, I hear groups of people talking all the time about how the world sucks so bad, and everything is SO awful. People say that humans have a progressive nature, but toward what? A BETTER world? Not exactly, try a better self.
I guess in short, I personally can't admit that the world is awful, because I feel like the minute I do, I've given up on it. I’m not a humanitarian, and I’m certainly not the most caring individual to ever walk the earth, but when people are dying and others just don’t give a shit.. I notice.
End rant. Spread the word about the monsoons in Pakistan, because I guarantee you know more than one person who hasn’t heard.
-CS.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
8 times.
You know who you are.
Quit kicking me to post, I'll let you know when the inspiration anvil is upon me.
-CS.
Quit kicking me to post, I'll let you know when the inspiration anvil is upon me.
-CS.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Movie review! [Repo! The Genetic Opera, par request.]
[Did I mention I'm freakin' ridiculously and on the border of dangerously attracted to the Repo Man? Hahaha, that can't be healthy. You watch it with me, though, and you'll find out.]
The Genetic Opera. What can be said?
[Well, for one, it came BEFORE the 2010 movie Repo Men, and though I recommend seeing that too, I can't say I'm thrilled with the fact that the basis of the plot was copied from this.]
This movie is a roller coaster ride. But not any stupid action movie/romance roller coaster- you know what I’m talking about, the gaudy shit at water parks that’s not even fun anymore because it’s just so damn predictable. I’m talking one of the goddamn wooden things that barely works anymore. Should’ve been shut down years ago, people complained that it was too unsafe and threw you all over the place- “my little Johnny almost died on the sharp turn toward the front, I’m gonna get your place condemned!”- oh, but people ride it for that very reason. To like this movie, you have to put all the critiquing skills you learned in college aside. [Hell, even if you refuse to, they’ll just fly off on the backspin like those expensive new Aviators. That’s what you get for being stubborn, they say.] Just when you think you’ve figured it out, you’ll completely turn around and take a route you never expected, whether you like it or not. But the designers [producers] are smarter than you; they knew they’d hook you by the end, no matter how much hell it put your mental state through- even though it's a musical. [A fucking ROCK musical, by the way.] So, is Repo! The Genetic Opera worth watching? I’ll reply with a resounding yes as I sit next to you, and the only thing more I can tell you is to just sit back and enjoy the fucking ride.
It’s okay, you’ll be addicted by the end as well.
I want to pick up blogging frequently again, so if you see me on the street, kick me and remind me. I'm serious.
-CS.
The Genetic Opera. What can be said?
[Well, for one, it came BEFORE the 2010 movie Repo Men, and though I recommend seeing that too, I can't say I'm thrilled with the fact that the basis of the plot was copied from this.]
This movie is a roller coaster ride. But not any stupid action movie/romance roller coaster- you know what I’m talking about, the gaudy shit at water parks that’s not even fun anymore because it’s just so damn predictable. I’m talking one of the goddamn wooden things that barely works anymore. Should’ve been shut down years ago, people complained that it was too unsafe and threw you all over the place- “my little Johnny almost died on the sharp turn toward the front, I’m gonna get your place condemned!”- oh, but people ride it for that very reason. To like this movie, you have to put all the critiquing skills you learned in college aside. [Hell, even if you refuse to, they’ll just fly off on the backspin like those expensive new Aviators. That’s what you get for being stubborn, they say.] Just when you think you’ve figured it out, you’ll completely turn around and take a route you never expected, whether you like it or not. But the designers [producers] are smarter than you; they knew they’d hook you by the end, no matter how much hell it put your mental state through- even though it's a musical. [A fucking ROCK musical, by the way.] So, is Repo! The Genetic Opera worth watching? I’ll reply with a resounding yes as I sit next to you, and the only thing more I can tell you is to just sit back and enjoy the fucking ride.
It’s okay, you’ll be addicted by the end as well.
I want to pick up blogging frequently again, so if you see me on the street, kick me and remind me. I'm serious.
-CS.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Never care for things they say, never care for games they play.
Have you ever just hurt about something, but weren't really sure what about?
You start to think, maybe it's about the loneliness. "I'm a pretty lonely person. I stay up late doing nothing in particular, and that gives me time to think about the people who aren't there."
Maybe it's about the feeling of being left behind. "Well, there's people out there- ones I care about- living their lives. What am I doing? Waiting to catch up."
Or maybe it's something deeper. "If this person wanted me, they wouldn't have to turn to other things to get cheap thrills. Maybe this is their escape. So I shouldn't be concerned, right?"
People act surprised when others distance themselves, but really, I feel like it's just human nature. When people hurt, they back away. But when confronted about this backing away, there are tons of different responses. Some people get angry immediately, some people take a passive-aggressive route and get nasty and sardonic or just quite obviously sad/hurt, some people distance themselves even more by ignoring this person or people, and some people blow it off like it's nothing.
Bet the one who's confronting this person never really stopped to think about how they felt, eh?
[Is this directed toward someone? You tell me.]
I've spent a long time this summer thinking about people, and the way they act. I think for a few years I've tried to put myself in another's shoes, and tried to understand their circumstances, and for the most part, I think I've gained a lot of patience that way. So, next time you experience someone's reaction to being confronted after they were hurt, put yourself in their shoes. They'd do the same for you, ya know.
-CS.
You start to think, maybe it's about the loneliness. "I'm a pretty lonely person. I stay up late doing nothing in particular, and that gives me time to think about the people who aren't there."
Maybe it's about the feeling of being left behind. "Well, there's people out there- ones I care about- living their lives. What am I doing? Waiting to catch up."
Or maybe it's something deeper. "If this person wanted me, they wouldn't have to turn to other things to get cheap thrills. Maybe this is their escape. So I shouldn't be concerned, right?"
People act surprised when others distance themselves, but really, I feel like it's just human nature. When people hurt, they back away. But when confronted about this backing away, there are tons of different responses. Some people get angry immediately, some people take a passive-aggressive route and get nasty and sardonic or just quite obviously sad/hurt, some people distance themselves even more by ignoring this person or people, and some people blow it off like it's nothing.
Bet the one who's confronting this person never really stopped to think about how they felt, eh?
[Is this directed toward someone? You tell me.]
I've spent a long time this summer thinking about people, and the way they act. I think for a few years I've tried to put myself in another's shoes, and tried to understand their circumstances, and for the most part, I think I've gained a lot of patience that way. So, next time you experience someone's reaction to being confronted after they were hurt, put yourself in their shoes. They'd do the same for you, ya know.
-CS.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Ask the lonely.
Life.
Today I cracked open a fortune cookie (did you know that those little motherfuckers have 10 grams of fat each?! You'd think that's how much they weighed out on their own... needless to say, I was upset.). To be honest, I was actually expecting some really depressing fortune (Have you noticed they're all happy?), but instead, I got this:
Your happiness is intertwined with your outlook on life. ☺
I'm trying to live it out, you should too. Writing helps me vent.
Anyway, you'd probably be better off not to read any of the following. I didn't do it for you, I did it for me. With the exception of a few lines, indicated with an *.
Steve Perry, sometimes your lyrics mindfuck me.
You think too much.
We've made it a week... a week and a day, and we can make it two weeks and many more days. Can't we? We can. We have to. Because since we've made it this long- this fucking long without cracking under pressure, we've been through so much, so goddamn MUCH-
-We have to make it. Please.
*I feel like people who are actually paying attention to my blog deserve an explanation for why I haven't blogged in almost a month... and honestly, I don't think I have one. I just haven't been motivated to write about anything. And what I write, I don't publish. I don't even publish it on LiveJournal; I feel like a certain person will read it and get offended because they assume it's in regard to them, and even if it is, I just don't want to be a whiny bitch because lord knows that happens enough as it is.
Ugh.
Someone tell me what to do with my life. And where to go. The people I should meet and the things I should tell them.
The stories I should weave, and the identity I should sculpt for myself.
Tell me where I will live, tell me how much money to make every year and what day I'll get married. And maybe divorced.
Tell me how many of my kids will stay in contact with me after they move out. How many will live through their teenage years without killing themselves.
Tell me what to make of myself and I'll do it, but I can't do it on my own.
And the only person I have to help me find it within myself... I feel that I hardly have.
Today I cracked open a fortune cookie (did you know that those little motherfuckers have 10 grams of fat each?! You'd think that's how much they weighed out on their own... needless to say, I was upset.). To be honest, I was actually expecting some really depressing fortune (Have you noticed they're all happy?), but instead, I got this:
Your happiness is intertwined with your outlook on life. ☺
I'm trying to live it out, you should too. Writing helps me vent.
Anyway, you'd probably be better off not to read any of the following. I didn't do it for you, I did it for me. With the exception of a few lines, indicated with an *.
Steve Perry, sometimes your lyrics mindfuck me.
You think too much.
We've made it a week... a week and a day, and we can make it two weeks and many more days. Can't we? We can. We have to. Because since we've made it this long- this fucking long without cracking under pressure, we've been through so much, so goddamn MUCH-
-We have to make it. Please.
*I feel like people who are actually paying attention to my blog deserve an explanation for why I haven't blogged in almost a month... and honestly, I don't think I have one. I just haven't been motivated to write about anything. And what I write, I don't publish. I don't even publish it on LiveJournal; I feel like a certain person will read it and get offended because they assume it's in regard to them, and even if it is, I just don't want to be a whiny bitch because lord knows that happens enough as it is.
Ugh.
Someone tell me what to do with my life. And where to go. The people I should meet and the things I should tell them.
The stories I should weave, and the identity I should sculpt for myself.
Tell me where I will live, tell me how much money to make every year and what day I'll get married. And maybe divorced.
Tell me how many of my kids will stay in contact with me after they move out. How many will live through their teenage years without killing themselves.
Tell me what to make of myself and I'll do it, but I can't do it on my own.
And the only person I have to help me find it within myself... I feel that I hardly have.
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